Even Shlomo - Va’era
I want to say a gevalt thing. The Gemara says that when you learn when you are young - and everyone knows it doesn’t mean young in years - but it’s like I make myself, that today I’m learning for the first time. This learning is like learning on a new page. Learning old is already like learning on a page that was written with two thousand words. It has millions of meanings, but right now let me tell you something.
What does it mean that you learn like a child? It means it’s not really clear to me yet. I’m learning the Gemara but I don’t really know it yet, I just know a little bit. But that little bit is so precious.
When I know everything it’s beautiful. But it stops being precious. The highest level in the world is that I know it completely but its precious to me like my children..
Now imagine on the deepest, highest, most glorious level:
Let’s assume I didn’t know I’m a Jew, and suddenly, like Yitzchak from the Moshav’. He comes to Israel and he writes a letter to his mother in Athens saying “I love Israel so much, I don’t know why”. She writes back saying, “Its crazy. I forgot to tell you that you are Jewish”. It's the craziest thing! So he doesn’t know anything, and the first time he hears about Yerushalayim… gevalt. You see, we are getting into it. We have to first talk a hundred times around it until we get into it.
My best example: I’m sitting on the subway on 72nd St. I see on the subway this absolutely beautiful girl and I just catch her before she goes through the door. I ask her what’s her name and she tells me her name and her number. This name and this number is so precious to me; gevalt is it precious. I learn it 101 times, mamesh 101 times. After that, Baruch Hashem I marry her and I have ten children. If today you will ask me ‘can you give your wife’s number’, I will say it straight, without even thinking about it. But in all honesty, does it have the same preciousness like when I met her on the subway when she told me her number? The saddest thing in the world is that today, it doesn’t do anything. The highest level in the world is, imagine you could reach that level… imagine, that you are married for sixty years and you have great grandchildren, but his wife’s name or number is as precious like that moment when the door is being closed on 72nd St.
Here there is a mind-blowing Torah from the Ishbitzer. We were always learning that we Jews were slaves in Egypt, and meitzar is mitzrayim. The Egyptians were making us so small, taking away our faculties, reducing us to the lowest level there is. And then G-d is taking us out of Egypt. The Ishbitzer puts in a new kind of exodus from Egypt. Maybe this was always clear to you but it wasn’t always clear to me.
The craziest thing is that G-d sends Moshe to Pharoh to let my people go, and it doesn’t work. And also when it comes to Yidden, Velo Sham’u El Moshe Mikotzer Ruach - they just didn’t understand it either. So this is a new kind of learning: that you hear G-d’s word but it is not shining. It is there - but it’s not shining. Everybody in their right mind understands that this is the same thing. Because we were slave in Egypt and we weren’t free yet, G-d’s words could not reach us completely. Its there but the word is in exile, G-d word is also in exile.
Remember once I told that during Yom Kippur of 1973, during that Yom Kippur, ten kids who I met in san Francisco came up to my shul to say good bye to me. They got involved with this swami and they are going to India. The plane to India goes once in a hundred years, so they have to go on Yom Kippur morning to India. It was crazy, sometimes you have patience, ‘what do you mean, they are going to serve G-d’. But how crazy can you be? You are a Jew! It’s Yom Kippur! You have to go to India on Yom Kippur? It’s like I want to give you a kiss, but first I want to throw a little garbage over your face.
Anyway, I played it cool. Most of the kids I didn’t really know. But this one girl, Leah’le, I couldn’t help it. Usually I try to be patient but it was Yom Kippur, I grabbed her by her neck and I said to her, ‘I’ll see you on the corner’. I yelled at her – I don’t know if I ever yelled like that my whole life. I said ‘Leah’le, I bless you that my voice should haunt you wherever you are. You’re a daughter of four holy mothers. Where are you going? This is not what G-d wants of you. Don’t tell me stories that you want to serve G-d. If you want to serve, G-d come back to shul with me. G-d will let you know what he wants you to do. I yelled at her You are lying, lying to yourself, lying to G-d’.. Craziest thing is a few months later she is back. She calls me up and she says ‘your voice was haunting me, I couldn’t get it out of me’. Obviously I wasn’t talking to her in my own private name; there are moments when you have the right to speak in in the name of all of Israel. But she did go to India, you know what that means? My words to her were in exile, it didn’t reach her then. Okay, eventually it reached her. But you know hat it is?
Listen to this, sweetest friends: Hear what the Ishbitzer says.
What happens to you when you hear something absolutely beautiful but you are not really ready for it, when you are not really on the level yet? Two things are happening to you. Your evil side becomes so strong because your evil side feels so threatened. Your Pharoh, Pharoh is getting worse and worse and worse every second. But also your holy side, your holy side is suddenly filled with longing. And the more you feel and you know that you are not on the level yet, the more you realize how precious it is, how special it is (to just be part of something so exalted, without understanding it yet).
Now listen to this.
There is a pasuk that says Ki Mitizyon Teizte Torah Ud’var Hashem Miyerushalayim. So this is a very, very strong Torah from the Ishbitzer; it’s good to remember. Isn’t Torah also G-ds word? How can you divide this pasuk? G-d’s word is from Yerushalayim but the Torah is from Tzion? So the Ishbitzer says like this. What is the difference between learning Torah and learning G-d’s word? The difference is like this. Torah is that when I’m learning - it’s clear to me that I have to do it. It’s no trouble doing it; I’ll do it without trouble - that’s called Torah. I know what to do when the Torah says so. I don’t mean ‘got to’ on a fork and knife level… its just that I have to. Dvar Hashem? The word of G-d is so clear to me that I have no trouble doing it. When I hear the word of G-d, it is clear to me in a billion ways. So it says Ki Mitizyon Teizte Torah, out of the depths of my heart is coming the Torah, but that the Torah should shine to me so clearly, mamesh its clear to me that its G-d word? This is only in Yerushalayim.
You see what it is, how could we make the golden calf? There was already Torah, but it wasn’t G-d’s word yet? U’Dvar Hashem Miyerushalayim. When Mashiach is coming, G-d’s word will be so clear to me.
Sometimes you do something and you don’t know what you are doing yet. The Ishbitzer says a gevalt Torah. If you do something, you know you have to do it but it’s not clear to you – it’s called a mitzvah. When you do something and its mamesh shining before you, it’s called Torah… gevalt. Ki Ner Mitzvah veTorah Ohr.
Okay, here I want to learn from inside, now something else.
If my whole life isn’t yet really to be a vessel for G-d’s word, I know I have to do it; I will do it Be’ezer Hashem. I’m not on the level yet... I have to make myself small before G-d; mamesh annihilate myself. I have to annihilate myself. What do I know?
So many people go through so many struggles in their life till they reach the level where they are supposed to be. A struggle is very, very holy; very, very precious. All the pain all the sufferings… you cant reach there in another way. You don’t wake up in the morning and are suddenly there. Its clear to you that you shouldn’t get angry every two minutes, it’s clear to you like daylight but you can’t help it. You might have to work all your life, all your life, until you reach the level that you don’t blow up on every stupid thing. So that struggling is very, very precious.
You know what it is, unless that struggling will shine into you all your life. Even after your each the level that you are clear, clear without struggling, clear without pain is not clear because the next day I can blow up again. But if it’s clear to me that that gevalt, I went through so much till I got here… you are not the same.
Approximately in the 1840, 1850, there was a Jew in Lemberg and he denounced all the great Rebbes, all the holy tzaddikim that they are a danger to young people. He would tell the authorities that they are dreamers, that they tell young people to dream about the messiah, and about G-d’s kingdom and they are a danger to mankind. So the craziest thing is, at that time Reb Mendele Riminover was in Lemberg in the Beis Medrash and all the holy people were with him. The police came and arrested them. The Ropshitzer was the sharpest of them all. He saw the police coming and jumped out of the window because he thought that at least one of them had to be outside. The Ropshitzer made himself strong; walked over to the police the next day, and said that he wants to talk to the head of police. The Ropshitzer was mamesh so handsome, so shiny. The head of the police asked him ‘what do you want’. He said ‘ I heard you arrested all those rabbis, the dreamers’. ‘Yeah, we did right, they are terrible people’. So the Ropshitzer says ‘yeah? I’m one of them’. The Policeman says ‘what? You are one of them? If you are one of them - I will release them all right away’.
Anyway, this person was making trouble all time. They realized there must be one Rebbe who has to send him to another planet. So there was one Rebbe, the Heilige Reb Baruch Zvarsha. Reb Baruch Zvarsha was so holy; he called every Jew ‘tzaddik’. He was once with his horse driver, and he said to his horse driver ‘tzaddik, go left, tzaddik go right’. So the horse driver was so stupid. He says ‘Rebbe, you say that I’m a tzaddik, and the whole world says that you are tzaddik. I have a son and you have a daughter, lets marry them off’. So Reb Baruch Zvarhsa says ’listen, there are all kinds of tzaddikim. Your son has to marry his kind of a tzaddik, and my daughter has to marry this kind of a tzaddik’. But anyway, the real tzaddikim thought that if Reb Baruch Zvarsha can curse this person who is making so much trouble with the police, because he is mamesh top – all their tzaros would come to an end. So the holy Ropshitzer comes to Reb Barcuh Zvarsha, it’s a long story; I’m just giving you one version. The Ropshitzer says to him ‘Heilige Zvarsher, you have to curse this person’. ‘Ropshitzer Rav, come with me, come down with me to the cellar’. They go down to the cellar and there was a huge barrel of water. So he says to the Ropshitzer ‘these are the tears I have cried before G-d that I should never say anything bad about another person. Please don’t take it sway from me’. Gevalt… gevalt.
Can you imagine how much Avraham Avinu went through until he reached the level of Avraham Avinu? Some of us think that he was a way out hippie, he shared everything with everyone. And Sara was walking around with beads, always happy.. let all the people come to our house. Do you know what the holy Tzanser says, it would be blasphemy if I would say this. He says that Avraham Avinu was born with the stingiest soul in the world, stingiest soul in the world, and mamesh he worked his way up to give everything away. You see friends, anything which falls into my lap I’m not giving over to my children. Whatever I work on like a dog I give over to my children. Let me ask you something. Why are all yidden successors of Avraham Avinu? Because Avraham Avinu went through so much until he got there.
Yitzchak by nature was completely out of awe, he was basically just a playboy… just taking everything easy. But Yitzchak worked himself up…gevura mamesh… he worked himself up that every word second counts, every word counts, every thought counts. And Ya’akov is mamesh both. Avraham, Yitzchak and Yaakov worked so hard until they got there, spiritually, mentally divinely, turned their kishkes over a million times a second, paved the way for us, paved the way. I’m sure its clear to you. Whatever a person goes through mentally spiritually until they mamesh reach a certain level, they give it over to their children. The real ‘yerusha’ you leave for your children is not the few rubles you leave, what you leave for you children is what you went through, the way you purify your heart. All those yidden who are just so to speak frum but they don’t work on it – their children don’t give a damn. Maybe their children will be frum because of a miracle or maybe someone else will turn them on. I know a lot of people, their parents are very frum and they don’t give a damn. And then there are some people, their parents are not so frum, but the little bit they have – they worked so hard on. Maybe they make Kiddush once a year….
When G-d says to Moshe Rabbeinu ‘Va’era El Avraham Yitzchak Veyakaov Bekel Sha-dai Ushmi Hashem Lo No’dati Lahem’. Here I want you to open your hearts in the deepest way. Why was it so hard for Avraham Yitzchak and Ya’akov? Because when they received G-d’s word, it wasn’t shining from all four corners. It wasn’t that here is G-d’s word and its all good, everything now is very clear to me. It was clear to me that gevalt do I have to turn over my kishkes a thousand times, a million times to do it. So the Ribbono shel Olam says to Moshe ‘I want you to know, Ushmi Hashem Lo Noda’ti Lahem’. You know what is so precious about Avraham, Yitzchak and Yaakov? I never told them something that was clear from one corner of the world to to the other. So he says ‘you know something, you want that I should give you a word and right away they should be out of Egypt – it should shine from one corner of the world to the other? It doesn’t go this way, it doesn’t go this way.
You know sweetest friends, imagine I learn something and right away I understand everything. I open the Rambam and its clear to me, I learn Tosfos and its clear to me. The old Bobover Rebbe said that when Mashiach is coming he will not be ashamed to go with his yeshiva to greet Mashiach. He won’t be ashamed with every Gemara in the closet to go and greet Mashiach. He said there is not a page in the whole library in the whole yeshiva which is not wet with tears… gevalt. He says ‘there is no ktzos hachosehan and Mishne lamelech which my talmidim don’t cry over’. I don’t mean crying like you think – I mean the deepest depths, crying because I want to understand it so much.
Now listen to this.
This parsha everybody knows is Yetzias Mitzrayim, but not only to get away from the Egyptians. To get out of Egypt is a secondary thing. The ten plagues – they weren’t so much for the Egyptians, they were mainly for us yidden. Because the ten plagues… each time we got a little bit out of Egypt. It was not just that we were slaves to Pharoh and had to work for him, mentally spiritually we were saves in Egypt. We were not on the level, we were not free people yet. We were just not on the level yet.
Sometimes the Ribbono shel Olam tells you something and it’s not clear yet, but its so precious, so precious. It is so precious. Sometimes G-d tells you something and it is so clear, it is very very beautiful but it has no preciousness. Now listen to his. When G-d speak to us on Mount Sinai, was there ever a moment when things were more clear to us than on Mount Sinai? G-d spoke to us face to face, and what is the first thing G-d says to us? ‘Remember, I took you out of Egypt’. You know what G-d was telling us? Don’t forget the preciousness which you felt when you weren’t clear about it but you knew there was one G-d when you were in Egypt. Gevalt is it precious’.
Let me ask you something even deeper. Basically, Moshe is the one who is giving us the Torah, but why couldn’t G-d have had a board of directors going down to Egypt, talking to the yidden to prepare them to get out of Egypt and on that day we go out. Because Moshe Rabbeinu’s thing is the Torah, eh is the master of the Torah. It doesn’t go this way. If you want to give somebody the Torah, you have to start in Egypt, mamesh in Egypt. And why do you have to start in Egypt? Because it so precious, so precious.
Haben Yakir Li Ephraim, Ephraim were the ones who couldn’t wait cause they were so hungry, so hungry. They mamesh had a little vision that G-d is taking them out – it mamesh blew their minds.
Now listen to me, I just want to tell you this.
You know what blew my mind over this? How do we yidden know when G-d wants to tell us something, and this might be crazy. Whenever something new happens, whenever G-d speaks to a yid, the ‘other side’ picks it up and they get crazy. Obviously, G-d was about to give us back the Holy Land, you know who picked it up first? The other side, lets put six million in gas chambers first. Holiness doesn’t know what holiness is, the other side… gevalt do they know what holy is, can’t stand holiness. I have to tell you something crazy, there are some holy people here from Russia. When I was in Moscow for Simchas Torah, I had a lot of holy sefarim with me. The authorities asked me about them, and I said that these are my personal books, and I will be taking them out with me. I also had a ‘sod yesharim’ with me, from the Ishbitzer. Do you know that they mamesh threw themselves at this book, started tearing it apart… gevalt. It was mamesh ‘lehashmid velaharog’.
I want you to know something crazy. I was once coming out from Romania, had a lot of books. He didn’t say anything. He saw Mei Hashiloach, the same thing happened. He mamesh got crazy, started tearing the book up. Gevalt… it was worth it to come and see that these books are so holy that the samech mem mamesh can’t bear it.
Now he says, whenever the Ribbono shel Olam sends us a little word, for us yidden its ‘choilas ahava’, we get sick with longing… we get sick with longing. We are living in a world that most people don’t know anything about yiddishkeit, whatever they hear about yiddishkeit is still in exile by them. But for them - it’s so precious. Then you meet a yidele for whom it is already clear, but it has lost its preciousness, its not so precious anymore, and they don’t even learn from it. They don’t even learn from it because they need someone to make their word precious even after they know it. I want it to be precious after I know it. You know why some of us are so angry a little bit at the people in Israel, the people who sit there by the ‘shisel’? They took away the whole preciousness. There is a state of Israel and that’s it. The state of Israel began with Hertzl or the moment Weitzman or Ben-Gurion came to Israel. Its cute, we got it. Where are the two thousand years of crying for it? What happened to that?
I’ll tell you something crazy, crazy crazy. Two weeks before the Yom Kippur war, I was taking a cab from the Hilton to somewhere. The taxi driver had his girlfriend in the car. I was talking about something and I said the word ‘yidden’. She turns to me and says ‘I’m not Jewish, I’m an Israeli’. ‘You are not Jewish? What do you mean you are not Jewish? You are ashamed to be related to the 6 million Jews? You are ashamed to be related to people who went into the fire for G-d during the inquisition?’. She says ‘Ein li Shum Esek Itam, I have nothing to do with them’. Sometimes I have patience, sometime I don’t. It was Friday afternoon, and I just didn’t have the time. I told the taxi driver ‘do me a favor, stop the car because one of us are going out’. Either she is going out or I am going out, because I smelled Auschwitz from her. Not the Jewish side, the other side. The Germans wanted to wipe out all the Jews, she wants to wipe out all the Jews too. She doesn’t need Jews, she just needs Israelis’. I said to him ‘do me favor, I don’t have koach’. And he needed the money so I just told him ‘your getting on my nerves, drive me already, forget it’. A year later, min hashamayim, he was still a taxi driver in the Hilton. I meet him again, nebech, the saddest thing is he only has one foot. He says to me ‘you know something, my girlfriend and I were looking for you. Now I know I’m a Jew, gevalt am I a Jew. When I was out there in the war - I knew I am a Jew, not an Israeli’.
You know what it is, this preciousness.
Here I want you to know the deepest depths, I just want you to open your hearts. There is Torah and tefila. Torah is when I understand what I am learning. Tefila, praying is also saying words of the Torah, but I don’t understand it yet. I understand a little bit, I can read what it says, and gevalt is it precious to me. I want you to know, when we put on a tallis when we daven and we say ‘Ma Yekar Chasdecha Elokim’ because davening is so precious. You know why the Holy Temple is destroyed? The Holy Temple is the place of davening. What happened to us? Things stopped being precious to us, it wasn’t so precious anymore.
And here I want you to know something sweetest friends. When I know how precious every Jew is, I don’t hate them. When I know how precious every Jew is, I don’t hate them. Only if I don’t know how precious they are do I am judge them. You know something, when it comes to our children and how much we love them. If the whole world, the shechina and G-d would tell me they are bad, I still wouldn’t believe them because precious it the strongest thing in the world. You think knowledge is special? Precious…
And here I want you to know sweetest friends. When I learn, I don’t have to do it together. When yidden daven, it’s mamesh ten yidden together. You know what that means? Because I know the same thing you know - we are together? You’re a lawyer, I’m a lawyer, you’re a doctor I’m a doctor, your a stick broker, I’m a stock broker? No. When we have the same things which are precious to us, gevalt does it bring us close, gevalt is that close, gevalt.
I want to say something very special. When I know something - its very beautiful, I look at it. When I want to tell you how precious it is I close my eyes because preciousness doesn’t come from my head. When someone gets married the first thing is you cover the face of the bride. You know what that means? Mamesh let there be preciousness between us. Children when they are born, their eyes are close because they know how precious life is. Children are so precious, gevalt are they precious.
Now here I want you to know something, the deepest depths. On the deepest level, preciousness comes form Avraham Yitzchak and Yaakov. This strength, that the Torah strikes something in us which makes us are how precious it is – this is what we inherited from our three fathers and four mothers. You know friends, its clear to me always, for us - Jewish children are so precious because of our mother Sara. Was there ever anybody in the world to whom a baby was more precious than to our mother Sara? How could it be?
I want you to know something, when the angels came to Avraham the said ‘Ayeh Sara Ishtecha, where is your wife? So he answered Hine Ba’ohel… and there are all kinds of Torahs. The Vorker says like this. The angels asked Avraham? What’s your wife about? She is turning over heaven and earth, everyone is talking about Sara, Where is she, what’s her level? Can you tell us something about her? Hina Ba’ohel, she is in the tent she is so hidden even I don’t know. She is beyond me. So I just want to add, preciousness..
So I want to say this. Sara was the first one who knew how precious a Jewish baby is. You can only give over yiddishkeit when you give over to them how precious it is. So the angels asked Avraham, what does Sara know? Hine Ba’ohel. What do you when something is very precious? You hide it. So he says ‘she is the master of hiding’. When you kiss somebody and you close your eyes, you know what that means? It’s so precious. Shir hashirim begins ‘Yishakeni Mineshikos Pihu’. The first sign when you love somebody is not how much you know them, its how precious they are… how precious they are to you. So here Moshe Rabbeinu says to the Ribbono shel Olam ‘what going on here? You are giving me a message to the yidden and a message to Pharoh and its not working yet. The Ribbono shel Olam says ‘gevalt, Va’era El Avraham Yitzchak Veya’akaov Bekel Shakai Ushmi Hashem Lo Noda’ati Lahem. This is the first way a yid learns how precious something is. And also, the Ishbitzer says, you have to know, sadly enough, when G-d is telling us something – the other side gets word of it, the other side wants to tear up the yidden. Friends, I want you to know something. Imagine you visit somebody… not us but lets say the straight world, and you ask somebody ‘how are your children’. They will say ‘oh, you mean my Brad?’ (in a very sarcastic tone) Everybody feels comfortable. Imagine they would say ‘gevalt, they are so precious I cant even talk about them’ and they begin crying like mad while talking about their children, those who asked will feel uncomfortable, they wouldn’t know what to do.
When someone loves someone and they are not that precious to them, it’s okay. If someone says ‘I was in Israel, it was beautiful I went to he holy wall and I prayed and did some shopping around the shuk, it was beautiful. Then at night went to a cocktail with president Navon, it was very important’ have you ever heard people taking like this? This they can bear. Did you ever hear someone coming back from Israel saying ‘gevalt, Ribbono shel Olam - I was by the holy wall’, they get the creeps, they cant bear it.
Now listen to me, the deepest depths, and here I just want you to know one more thing. What is the highest level? The highest level is that after you have it, it is still so precious. And here I want you to blow your mind. Moshe Rabbeinu says to G-d ‘what is your name?’, G-d says ‘I will be what I will be’. I wouldn’t have the chutzpa to translate it in such a way. The Ribbono shel Olam says ‘do you know what I am all about? That even when you have it, it’s on the level like it will be. That preciousness. Ekyeh asher Ekyeh – I have it already, and its so precious. I have it and I don’t have it.
Sweetest friends, if Moshe Rabbeinu would come to yidden one and say ’listen yidden, I just discussed with Pharoh, you are free, from now on you are free’. Suddenly they will blow the shofar and everyone is free. Then Moshe Rabbeinu would say ‘okay, lets go to Israel’. Some would say ‘lets go to America, lets go to Canada, lets go to Australia. Do you know why we stuck together? Because it was so hard when we got out together. We got out, we were smelling freedom, we were smelling going out, and we didn’t go out. Imagine we are two thousand years in exile, we are completely assimilated. One day we got a letter from our uncle in Israel and he says ‘Israel belongs to the Jews, anybody interested in coming’? Not even five yidden would be there, gevalt how much we went through to get there’.
And here I want you to know something, I don’t want to say anything bad. This is on the level of prayer. Why was it so easy for some people to give back the Sinai? Why are there so many creeps in Israel who want to give back everything? I want to tell you something, everybody knows, you can’t give back Jerusalem because for two thousand years us ehrlich yidden say ‘Vesechezena Eineinu Beshuvcha Letizyon, Bonei Yerushalayim. If you would have only had the privilege of adding, ‘Bonei Sinai Shomron Veyerushalayim’, maybe we would be on the level that we don’t have to give back anything, but the preciousness of saying every day Bonei Yeruhsalayim, Vesechezna Einenu, paved the way that even the most far away cant help… Yerushalayim is precious. Sinai wasn’t precious. Shomron? Some day it’s a dream of Sharon. As much as it’s not true, it is not true. every millionth’l ounce of Israel is precious.
Now one more thing.
Let me ask you, after you take medicine, you jump out of bed. Imagine G-d forbid someone is very sick, deadly sick, the doctor comes to gives you three pills. And I already ordered tickets for this person to go to Bermuda for the weekend. I say chapnisht, doesn’t go so fast. Moshe Rabbeinu says ‘Ribbono Shel Olam, you told me to take the yidden out of Egypt’. Chapnisht, doesn’t go so fast. Medicine doesn’t work so fast.
Listen to this, the second thing we read in this parsha is ‘Eile Rashei Beis Avosam’, this is the story of Reuven, Shimon, Levi Moshe and Ahron. Now listen to this. What did we inherit form Avraham Yitzchak and Ya’akov? There were a lot of people who maybe believed in G-d before Avraham, but you know what the problem was? It wasn’t precious to them. If I can say in a nutshell, what’s the difference between Avraham and Noach? Noach also believed in G-d, but Rashi says ‘Ma’amain Veieno Ma’amain’. What is Ma’amin ve’eino Mamamin? It wasn’t precious. Avraham Avinu is Rosh (Hamon Am?), not only that Avraham Avinu believed in G-d. the question is not if you believe in G-d because you can believe in G-d because it so happens there is one G-d. I’ll ask you, do you believe in coca Cola? You will say ‘yes, because there is Coca Cola. Ill ask you ‘do you believe that Reagan is the president? Yes, because he is. Do you believe in G-d? yes, because there is’. This is not the point. The point is, could you live without G-d? Do you know how precious it is there is one G-d? Can you have in your head any vision to live without G-d? If you only believe in G-d because there is a G-d, so there is. The Ishbitzer says Eile Rashie Beis Avosam…right away. The Torah begins to connect ourselves back to our roots. Eile Rashei Beis Avosam.
Now listen to this, when you want to go get somebody out of Egypt and it doesn’t go, do you know what you do? You have to connect them to Avraham, Yitzchak and Ya’akov. It’s not yet time to explain to them things better, you have too make things more and more and more precious.
So there is a level that is it mamesh shining into my being that the whole thing is so precious. I’m so completely filled with it, there is no problem. Then there is a level that I can’t do anything with it, its just hanging inside of me.
This in between, this is Parshas Va’era. This is this parsha. When we really go out of Egypt it means that my toenails are free. This Shabbos is nothing of me is free, but deep deep inside I know there is such a thing as freedom. Inside of the inside I know there is something so special.
On Shabbos Va'era we read the four steps of getting out of Egypt. The first thing is 'Vehotzeisi', I will take you out. Vehitzalti, I will save you. Vega'alti, I will redeem you.
Then it says 'Velakachti Eschem Li Le'am, and then I will take you to be my people. I don’t know what it means, but let me tell you the way it looks to me now.